at the poem

2025

I started dancing at the age of 10 in an amateur dance theatre “Suite” of my aunt Svetlana. She has become my first teacher and mentor, who basically showed me how any idea or impulse can take shape in the body and through that become reality. I would eventually spend 5 or even 6 evenings a week in the cultural centre where we rehearsed and my heroic mom drove me back and forth to every competition in the region. There were no subsidies, no guest teachers, no light or set designers, so we learned how to do everything by ourselves - to sew the costumes on each other the night before a competition, to repurpose props from 20 years ago, to singe the edges of chiffon fabric to prevent it from fraying, to lead warm ups and classes for younger kids, to choreograph together. We didn’t just learn how to dance, we learned about creativity, responsibility, friendship (and sometimes rivalry, of course), support and leadership. In 2025 “Suite” celebrated its 30th anniversary. I couldn’t be there in person, but I really wanted to create something special as a gift for my aunt, for the place and community that laid the foundation of the artist I am becoming. That’s how this visual movement poem came to life.

Inspired by at the poem by Clark Coolidge

You must have missed the signpost, took 
the wrong turning, ended up for the sore moment 
in that mud without holes. You must gaze 
into the sun here to take your rest, suspend 
motion and speech on a point of 
zircon sand. The only articulate surfaces, they 
are also somehow sounds, are buildings which 
as you approach pour their facades at your feet 
in a rush of the purest substances.
There are no faces to be seen since all 
that is human here is you.
Numbers are become animal forms: the pounce, 
the adder and the lynx. The things you loved 
are all shades of moss.
Your only index the very grains of sand.
And somehow the set of things has you again, 
a fascination in love of self.